This is so depressing. I’m 4 days delayed today, again, in my 35 day average cycle. We decided to take the test. It turned out negative. For the past 3 days, I tried to be open minded and not to hope too much so as not to feel really bad.   

It still hurts. I hoped, wished and dreamt. I can’t help but cry. Just putting a brave act but deep down inside… *sigh*

This kind of depression brings old bad stuff in life.

Well, I know in God’s time, the day we’re waiting for will come…

Wishing that this is really it!! 2 days delay, but still, I feel I’ll have my monthly visitor either tonight or tomorrow. *sigh* Hope I’ m wrong!

I am hoping that this is it! I am one day delay (in my 35 day average cycle). I don’t want to preempt it and will wait until my 40th day to test if… 

I haven’t told hamey yet and I don’t know if he has a clue that I am already delayed. I remember that I told him I was suppose to have my period yesterday. Better this way, at least we won’t get so excited. *sigh* 4 more days to go.

Anything can happen…