This is so depressing. I’m 4 days delayed today, again, in my 35 day average cycle. We decided to take the test. It turned out negative. For the past 3 days, I tried to be open minded and not to hope too much so as not to feel really bad.   

It still hurts. I hoped, wished and dreamt. I can’t help but cry. Just putting a brave act but deep down inside… *sigh*

This kind of depression brings old bad stuff in life.

Well, I know in God’s time, the day we’re waiting for will come…