I am one of those people who have issues about getting pregnant. I know I've been married only for a year and 4 months but the urge of having a baby was there since God knows when (not yet married). My greatest fear is not to have my own kid (flesh and blood). I am adopted...
A week before I got married, I was diagnosed to have PCOS. And around two years before that, I was diagnosed to have a retroverted uterus, according to others, it's kind of difficult for the sperm to travel unless you do "it" the right way. I don't actually remember when I started taking Chlomid. I took it once then stopped for months then recently started it again, started with one Chlomid a day (for five days) and for every unsuccessful month, i take additional number of Chlomid tablets a day up to the time i reached taking 4 Chlomids in a day for 5 days. It was expensive and exhausting. That's when I decided to stop and to take a rest with the medicines. By the way, I'm taking Metformin with Chlomid, 1500mg a day, 1-500mg after lunch and 2-500mg after dinner which is usually with Chlomid. Imagine, I was taking up 6 pieces of tablets at one time!
Anyway, when I decided to stop taking my medicines, my OB suggested Sonohysterogram (SHG) to check if my fallopian tubes are free from blockages. I prepared for that physically and mentally and it was painful (well, I have a low pain tolerance). There is a slight blockage in my right fallopian tube but my OB said that the liquid passes through the tubes so, it's nothing to worry (but the mere fact that there's a slight blockage, it's another obstacle for the sperms) Fortunately, my left fallopian tube is fine.
2 weeks ago, I got slightly depressed! I was 4 days delayed (in my 35 day average cycle). Was kind of hopeful but trying not to expect too much because I didn't really notice that I ovulated (Yes, I monitor my discharge). It was negative and I was kind of hurt, for the first time. sobrang sama ng loob ko... down ako and even if sinasabi ko sa sarili ko na in God's time... puso ko iba ang sinasabi, nagrerebelde.
Last Saturday, I went to National Bookstore. It's a habit to check for new titles and scan few books. I just thought to look for a book that tackles about infertility and found this book still in plastic. It was closing time and decided to buy the book, bahala na if it's useful or not. I started reading it (and I am still reading the book but almost finish). I know I am not yet done with the book but I think, based from the chapters I've read, it is helpful. It tackles not only about infertility but also our faith (and other stuff infertile couples experience along the way). For me, nakakagaan sya ng loob and helps me understand more our physical and spiritual condition.
I guess I just want you all to know what I went through and I still have a longggggg journey to take. But at least this book opened my eyes as early as now for all the possibilities that may happen in the future..
Just like the brides, Let go and let GOD!
*BOOK:
When the cradle is empty
(answering tough questions about infertility)
by: John and Sylvia Van Regenmorter
(picture at the back: Comfort for couples longing for parenthood)
A week before I got married, I was diagnosed to have PCOS. And around two years before that, I was diagnosed to have a retroverted uterus, according to others, it's kind of difficult for the sperm to travel unless you do "it" the right way. I don't actually remember when I started taking Chlomid. I took it once then stopped for months then recently started it again, started with one Chlomid a day (for five days) and for every unsuccessful month, i take additional number of Chlomid tablets a day up to the time i reached taking 4 Chlomids in a day for 5 days. It was expensive and exhausting. That's when I decided to stop and to take a rest with the medicines. By the way, I'm taking Metformin with Chlomid, 1500mg a day, 1-500mg after lunch and 2-500mg after dinner which is usually with Chlomid. Imagine, I was taking up 6 pieces of tablets at one time!
Anyway, when I decided to stop taking my medicines, my OB suggested Sonohysterogram (SHG) to check if my fallopian tubes are free from blockages. I prepared for that physically and mentally and it was painful (well, I have a low pain tolerance). There is a slight blockage in my right fallopian tube but my OB said that the liquid passes through the tubes so, it's nothing to worry (but the mere fact that there's a slight blockage, it's another obstacle for the sperms) Fortunately, my left fallopian tube is fine.
2 weeks ago, I got slightly depressed! I was 4 days delayed (in my 35 day average cycle). Was kind of hopeful but trying not to expect too much because I didn't really notice that I ovulated (Yes, I monitor my discharge). It was negative and I was kind of hurt, for the first time. sobrang sama ng loob ko... down ako and even if sinasabi ko sa sarili ko na in God's time... puso ko iba ang sinasabi, nagrerebelde.
Last Saturday, I went to National Bookstore. It's a habit to check for new titles and scan few books. I just thought to look for a book that tackles about infertility and found this book still in plastic. It was closing time and decided to buy the book, bahala na if it's useful or not. I started reading it (and I am still reading the book but almost finish). I know I am not yet done with the book but I think, based from the chapters I've read, it is helpful. It tackles not only about infertility but also our faith (and other stuff infertile couples experience along the way). For me, nakakagaan sya ng loob and helps me understand more our physical and spiritual condition.
I guess I just want you all to know what I went through and I still have a longggggg journey to take. But at least this book opened my eyes as early as now for all the possibilities that may happen in the future..
Just like the brides, Let go and let GOD!
*BOOK:
When the cradle is empty
(answering tough questions about infertility)
by: John and Sylvia Van Regenmorter
(picture at the back: Comfort for couples longing for parenthood)
