September 15 (2 days before hamey arrives from the US)

LMP: 38 weeks and 5 days
First Ultrasound: 36 weeks and 5 days

Had my check-up and was already 1cm open. Got really excited since malapit na talaga akong manganak. I was told that anytime pwede ng lumabas si baby. Syempre I still prayed na pagkadating na lang ni hamey. Fear ko talaga was manganak ako ng wala pa si hamey.

September 22, Friday

LMP: 39 weeks and 5 days
First Ultrasound: 37 weeks and 5 days

Still 1cm. Ordered by my OB to have a bio-physical ultrasound. Scheduled it for Monday.

September 25, Monday

LMP: 40 weeks and 1 day
First Ultrasound: 38 weeks and 1 day

We learned that kaya pala d pa din ako nag o-open (been 1cm for a week) is because may cord coil. *sniff* My OB assured us na pwede pang matanggal yun and that the baby is doing fine. We never let the grannies know kahit ang kulit kulit na nila bakit ang tagal tagal daw.

September 29, Friday

LMP: 40 weeks and 5 days
First Ultrasound: 38 weeks and 5 days

Still brownout because of Milenyo. Worried since hindi ko nafi-feel masyadong nag move si baby. She’s moving but not as active as before. Called my OB about this. Ang hirap maka contact! Sa loob loob ko, kung kelan pa malapit na kong manganak syaka naman ang hirap ma contact ng doctor ko. Not her fault, walang signal! Finally! I was able to talk to her. She instructed me to go to Genesis at Asian and have a Non-Stress Test (for the baby). Baby’s fine and funny, nagko-contract na pala ako d ko pa alam. Akala ko sumisiksik lang ang pwet ni baby. Was IEd and learned that I am 2cm open. We were given the option magpa admit na but  we decided to wait at home since malapit naman ang bahay namin.

September 30, Saturday

LMP: 40 weeks and 6 days
First Ultrasound: 38 weeks and 6 days

D pa din ako nanganganak. Went to OB’s clinic and had my weekly check-up. Still 2 cm. OB gave us the option to be induce that day. We again decided to wait but I told my OB that I don’t want to go beyond October 8. Pag hindi pa daw ako nanganganak by Thursday, October 5, induce na ko.

Vera and I when I when she was just 9 day old. Picture taken by hamey

January 2006 Hamey decided to have a 3week VL in February so he can get away and relax from work stress and planned an advance summer vacation at Pearl Farm in Davao with me (of course!). At this point, I also decided to see my OB again for another round of meds. Ready na ulit ako. I was waiting for my period before going back to her.

End of January wala pa din akong dalaw pero hindi ko pa binibigyan pansin yun. I said to myself, intayin ko ang 45th day since nung dalaga ako, pinaka matagal kong span is 45 days bago ulit magkaron. Had my last period on December 18, 2005. I was also tempted to take the home pregnancy test (HPT) since we have a plan to have a vacation and we intend to buy the tickets by January 31 since tataas ang tax by February 1. Pero pinigilan ko pa din ang sarili ko kasi natatakot akong makakuha ng negative result… again.

February

February 2, 5am. Decided to take the HPT. Naisip ko, if negative, I could possibly have another porblem down there. Might as well check this before going to the doctor so I won’t need to do it in the clinic again. Damn! Sana may nag video ng reaction ko when I saw the two lines! Nagising ako ng todo! D ako makapaniwala! Dati, I really have to wait (it says to wait for about 3 minutes?) for the second line to appear (which never really happened). Ngayon, ganun ganun na lang. No more in-a-matter-of-minute waiting! My reaction? Nanlambot ako sa tuwa. I immediately woke hamey and showed him the test thru my cellphone light. He had a funnier reaction compared to me. Ano daw yun, thermometer? And then I said, I’m pregnant! Nakaka inis lang reaction nya kasi parang ayaw nyang maniwala. We decided not to tell anybody yet hanggang hindi pa confirmed. Tamang tama, in 2 days may clinic doctor ko and pupunta kami para pa check.

That day, hindi ako nakatiis. I had two stocks of HPT. So about 8am, I did the test again. And still got the same result. I remembered that I had this stock since November so I asked hamey to buy one. Convinced na ko na hindi na talaga magbabago ang result. *grins*

What happened to our planned vacation? We bought our tickets on January 31 and returned it on February 5. Dami kasing kontra bulate. *grins*

Halos dalawang taon mula ng kami ay makasal ng malaman naming ako ay nagdadalang tao.

OMG! Bakit ang lalim ng kwento? HAHAHA!!!

Before pa ko ikasal may mga “abnormalities” na ko sa matres. Retroverted Uterus, Adenomyosis and one week before I got married, I was diagnose to have PCOS. Ang saya-saya diba? Pero d ko gaanong inisip na matatagalan palang talaga bago ako kami mag ka baby.

I didn’t go through a continuous treatment for a year. I think it was in June 2005 that I started treatment for PCOS. By September, hinang hina na ko sa kaka take ng medicines. And then I learned that my sugar level went beyond the boundary which I need to maintain to normal boundary before I get pregnant.  I gave up! Gave up with my medicines, going to the doctor and got a bit “lost” for awhile. Yup, lost my faith.

One month passed, nothing has changed but I eventually realized that there are still other blessings from Him. I focused on that and learned to let go and let God.

December 2005, grocery time. This is somehow funny. I can’t find the usual sanitary pads I’ve been using for years and it never occur to me that it was already a sign. So, fine! I didn’t buy any other brand and was still hoping I’ll find my favorite brand somewhere else.

January 2006, passed by the grocery. I can’t really find Whisper with wings (the ultra slim one). Hmp! I sort of had no choice since I don’t have a stock of my favorite pads at home. So, i just bought the Regular one!

I should have known, it’s a sign…