I am not sure if I am nursing my depression more by listening to Twilight’s OST. I’ve been feeling blue since 3 months ago. It’s not a long running depression, sometimes it’s there, sometimes it’s not. It kind of hit me every month just like a period but I don’t think it’s PMSing since I get depress all through out the month except when I have my period. And the trouble with this is that I know why I am depress and I don’t act on it because I don’t know how to. I don’t know if it’s what they call midlife crisis since in a few days from now, I’ll be hitting the big 3-0! I am not really worried about getting old. But as I googled the definition of midlife crisis, other aspects in life can trigger it. *sigh*

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from wikipedia:

For the approximately 10% of middle aged adults who go through an age-related midlife crisis, the condition is most common ranging from the ages of 30-60 (a large study in the 1990s[5] found that the average age at onset of a self-described midlife crisis was 46). Mid life crises last about 3-10 years in men and 2-5 years in women.

A midlife crisis could be caused by aging itself, or aging in combination with changes, problems, or regrets over:

* work or career
* spousal relationships
* maturation of children
* aging or death of parents
* physical changes associated with aging

Midlife crises seem to affect men and women differently. Researchers[6] have proposed that the triggers for mid-life crisis differ between men and women, with male mid-life crisis more likely to be caused by work issues.

Some have hypothesized that another cause of the male mid-life crisis is the imminent menopause of the female partner and end of her reproductive career.[7] This renews the need for the man to attract younger women.